Faith has to work twenty-four hours a day in and through us, or we perish. ~ Bill W., pg. 16
This is Steps 2 and 12. We believe there is a Power greater than ourselves, and we act as if that Power exists. “Acting as if” was a skill that was encouraged in me many years ago. As an agnostic and self-driven gal, I had to be told to “act as if.” Prayer and then action was the way I was told to do things. If there was something troubling me, or if I was unsure of what to do in some instance; it was suggested that I not do anything for 24 hours. I was to pray, ask for direction and protection, then just go about my day as if there were nothing to decide. Each time the issue or situation came to mind, I was told to pray to have my God lift and carry it. The first time I had to practice this involved my kid sister who was going to court while facing cocaine charges that could result in 10 years in prison. I followed my sponsors advice and did nothing but pray and hand it over. I spent the whole waiting time in tears and prayer.
But, to my great amazement it worked! I stopped being the family social worker that weekend. I was not very popular with my family, but my life took on a great new meaning. I came to believe that there was a loving and merciful God, and it wasn’t me. I started living the AA 12 Step Program of recovery in my daily life. 24/7/365, I am an AA member. I do not do things perfectly, but I do practice the 24 hour wait during difficult decisions, and I do ask God for protection and direction in all of my affairs each morning before I begin my day. It is such a relief that I do not have to be in charge or run other people’s lives anymore. It is such a relief to not have to have all the answers all the time. All I have to do is let go and let God. Thank goodness for AA.